家中發生的慘事一件接一件。。。。母親推說那是倒霉，我只是覺得一切都可以控制…只是因為當時人失控，連累了其他人。

有自私的人，小心眼的人，計算別人的人…

我到這間公司來之後，幾乎都沒好事發生。。。

要花我三個月糧去買來逗父親喜歡的東西，令家庭氣氛差到極點，三個月的糧不是說笑的。。。如果明知自己充不了大頭鬼，我不會去充，但為何吾父沒收入，卻要去充這個大頭鬼？最後還計算著，說酸溜溜的話。一家人沒隔夜仇，這樣不聞不問的情況卻過了半個月…也罷，對於他，我心已經太累了。

若然真是那麼抱歉把我生下來受罪，我更感謝你給我生命，讓我快樂過…可是，為什麼我一直沒有小看你，你硬迫我要去小看你自己？

沮喪的人生繼續沮喪，好想死，想過死，想得很詳死，何時死，怎樣死…但要去動手，害怕、心裏怕死了。

然而留下來，只有苦，只有無耐，一厥不震，沒有前途，一片灰暗。。。心灰意冷的日子更朝漆黑進發了，沒有人可以給我一個溫暖的擁抱，沒有東西可以依靠，連立錐之地都沒有，如屐寒冰…

而我的年紀也不少了…為何仍會感覺孤苦伶仃？

近來在暗沉期之後, 好像又感覺到一點明朗化, 其實這也好, 總是在想壞的也很不妙
不過對人越想越不信任, 又太可惜了。

又開始玩電腦遊戲...明明讀書在忙吔, 太慘了...=︿="

The economic environment here is worse... Surely it is also the same case as that in Europe... And I dare not quit to go for the working holiday now... Not the right timing...  Maybe I got no luck to go overseas....

Joseph is suprisingly hardworking on his study now... and concentrated for his work... Seems that I am really too lazy for my live...What on earth I am doing now........  I...

Just hoping the conversion course canbe over very soon... But indeed it is coming to an end... The 2nd sem is just one month left... And I soon will face my 2nd final exam... But how come I got no mood for my study?

I am sorry to let Joseph knew my lazyness indeed.... But.. well... that is me after all... haha

Went to the botanic and zoological park of Hong Kong yesterday.  The weather was so cold that when I got home I got serious headache.  But the trip was nice.... at least before Ken came...

I talked to an attendant in the park... about the park and the animals... Lucky he was someone very talkative... It is nice to chat with those who familiar with the place you are visiting .... But it already is good when you can talk to strangers.

I know Iris's thinking.... Ken treats her nicer when her friends is around... So she didn't let me just go.... Also I couldn't just leave by saying I became a kind of disturbance after he came.... After all Ken is the kind of man who love pride and reputation....  But when three of us together I was the one left behind....  Though I rather like being the invisible part of the company....Soon I will get use to it...

All my friends have their friends.... and I am not someone special to them........

Doris tries to catch me to go Taiwan with her in April.... While I told her I got less AL then her, and I needed to spare the AL for my study.... She was kind of enforcing me to go travel still in April.  And of course I am not that willing to go with her when my schedule is not quite the same as her... Lucky now she has another friends will go to Taiwan during mid-May... and she also rather like going with her friends...
And I just let her for good....

I just annoyed that she sound like she didn't like going there during May as it is a holiday season... While she was totally out of joy to travel with her friends now in Mid-may... Sound like a double standard to me....  But never mind...

公司是戰場, 想想, 就是常理呀。

對於某些人, 有滿肚子的怨恨, 可, 也沒什麼可以做的。
既然你來陰的, 我們也小心提防, 只是如此呀。
我們不去犯人, 卻因別人的躲懶而蒙受打壓, 想想, 這也是人情, 可, 這種"英明"君主之下, 和坤當道, 有什麼辦法?

就怪我們的工種是大後防, 總之不被人重視和尊重吧。
會尊重別人的傢伙, 反正, 都走光了。
我不會再說人心不古, 因為時代變了,
我只會說現圶的人是貪婪的自私。

要想辦法, 想辦法罷脫兩個賤人。
有一個腦袋放聰明的, 已走開了,
另一個, 厚著面皮死要接近,

如果我們發難, 我們就輸了,
可, 冷漠對待, 對方還是厚著面皮,
想想, 想辦法對付這婊子。